It's heart wrenching what they call love
Painfully jaw clenching when they think their heart beats for him...
My own foolish ways allow me to account for these acts...
No! I don't mean to criticize young hearts... I just want you to realize that the heart turns into a fool sometimes..
And the things we do for affection
Are the same things that will earn our rejection, when our hearts are going through this phase...
We spend so much time on the phone
Make so many plans to be alone
Never realizing we're wrong
Committing ourselves to long
Very long
As long as we can relationships
To prove that it isn't some "little love thing"
That this "other" isn't just my high school fling...
He's my being
No leaving
He's my cleaving
He's my feeding to my every need
My greed
I lose my mind! Literally lose it! And every thought while I'm not preoccupied involves his presence near me!
And it's wrong! It's all wrong the way we think we love another!
And we can't bother
To even conceive the thought of a break up..That would be wrong right?
Because I gave so much of myself to you
That separation would cause me to lose myself
Drive myself so far out into this road...
So LOST, I'm in a well known place, but I have no idea of where I am...
That well known place of being SINGLE
The state I was in before I knew you
But I want to get back on that main road!
That road everyone's driving on....COMMITMENT!
Giving myself to you
Seems so much better than finding out what's true...
I rather cling to you and make things temporary
And slaughter real opportunities for love on the contrary
I rather be dumb than smart....
I rather toy with my foolish, foolish heart....
Samantha Blake 2008©